Philippians 3:3
For it is we who are the circumcision, we who worship by the Spirit of God, who glory in Christ Jesus, and who put no confidence in the flesh.


Good Morning Holy Spirit-
I love you and thank you for all the wonderful encounters recently. My heart is stirred to seek you more, and to walk in complete deliverance and physical healing.

I delight in you. You bring joy to the Father’s heart. Hard lessons came and you have learned well. Take captive every thought that does not line up with your healing and make it obedient to what the Word (Jesus) says about you. A new level of faith has been established in your heart.

The Saturday before Thanksgiving I came down with a common cold. It quickly turned into pneumonia that lasted for approximately 4 weeks. On a Sunday 2 weeks after the diagnosis of pneumonia, I began experiencing urinary tract problems. I ended up in the Emergency room with pain in the bladder off the 1-10 scale. I began seeking the LORD that Sunday as to what was going on with me. He quickly told me it was a spirit of infirmity and to take authority in Jesus name over it. My husband had been napping that day and as he awoke he told me of a dream he had. He was praying for a woman and received a word of knowledge to evict the spirit at work in her. I immediately received that word and he prayed over me. We battled this for no less than 9 hours and finally relented and went to the ER. This was a difficult time, as I knew the LORD had spoken so specifically to me that Sunday. In the midst of the intense pain I began praising Him; not for the infirmity but in the midst of it. I continued to take the antibiotics and eventually recovered completely. I also continued to seek Him and press into the understanding of why the healing didn’t quickly appear.

We were in Tyler, Texas visiting our children recently for Christmas Holiday. It was an amazing time spent with all of our family. I experienced another attack, but this time it was a fear and insecurity that suddenly came on me. It was a tormenting spirit. I battled this in the ways I have always battled when under an attack. The word of God was given to me by the Spirit. I took authority over it in Jesus name. It still remained.

In all of these attacks this month there was a common denominator associated with the battle. I knew in my heart that Jesus was battling with me. He was interceding for me. He also was giving me knowledge of what I was battling; but was not delivering me out of it. He was allowing it for a deeper purpose.

2 Corinthians 12:7-10
To keep me form becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the LORD to take it away from me. But, he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I was healed in 2004 of an aggressive cancer that characteristically does not respond to chemo therapy or radiation treatment. I received a creative miracle in 1985, that there was no medical explanation for. Many times he has intervened in my life and the life of my husband and children. We always pray in faith knowing it is the Father’s will to heal. When you pray and the healing is delayed or never happens, it is perplexing. I began to press in more, to praise him more, to seek him more. More revelation came as to why this happens in my life and in so many believers.

I Corinthians 10:33
For I am not seeking my own good but the good of many, so that they may be saved.

On December 27th and 28th, I was seeking the LORD specifically about the attacks that I had encountered recently and He began shedding some light on it all.

Jan, the weakness you are feeling is actually my strength being perfected in you. I want you to walk in supernatural confidence in me. My character is being shaped in you. You should have no confidence in the flesh. I am shaping you for service, service to others, to the least of these. This takes being clothed in humility. This process is not comfortable. You recognized early on that I was at work in you. You were crying out for deliverance from your physical and emotional torment and I was right there with you walking you through it all. Character building comes through walking it out, not being delivered from it.

Philippians 2:3-11
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus; Who being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death- even death on a cross! Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is LORD, to the glory of God the Father

I believe these delays in healing are for a deeper purpose, if we allow the LORD to work good in them. He is working on clothing us in humility, shaping us in compassion. I have better understanding of walking in His authority, of walking in his power. I have no confidence in myself, but I am completely dependant on Jesus. He sees the bigger picture of our lives. Unless you have suffered how can you have compassion for the suffering of the world? Unless you have been tormented how can you press in for deliverance for the tormented? I want to fellowship in Christ’s sufferings. I want more compassion for the world, and for the Body of Christ.

For many years now, my husband Nate and I have known we were called to the least of these. We had an intercity ministry for several years and look forward to foreign missions in our future. In July of 2011, we are planning a trip to India to minister the Good News of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. What does that entail?

• Complete deliverance from sin that has them bound.
• Eternal life with Jesus.
• Deliverance from tormenting spirits
• Physical and emotional healing
• Joy, Peace and Rest

I was one of the least of these when Jesus saved me gloriously. I have passion to share his love with all people. To those who have been forgiven much, love much. I would gladly fellowship in Christ’s sufferings to have a part in the blessing of the gospel. To God be the Glory!

Philippians 4:14
Yet, it was good of you to share in my troubles

Philippians 3:10-11
I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.




Holy Spirit what does it mean to fellowship in Christ’s sufferings?

Holy Spirit asked me, “What did Jesus take on himself when he died for humanity”
My response to Him was. “Jesus took all pain, physical, emotional and mental.”
Holy Spirit replied, “Everything that happened to humanity because of the fall, Christ took on himself to redeem mankind.”

As you become more transformed into his image, the image of Christ, you begin to think his thoughts. You love more complete. What breaks the heart of the Father begins to break your heart. You fellowship in his sufferings, so that you can help mankind, through your prayers of intercession and through your physical actions. You are Jesus to them.

John 15:15
I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.

Jesus refers to us as friends, even close friends. He is intimately acquainted with our lives and we are becoming intimately acquainted with his. At least that is his desire for us. He wants us involved in what he is thinking and doing. He wants to share with us everything the Father shares with him!

We have to set a pause button on our lives. By this I mean we need to settle ourselves and center our thoughts on him. Take time, set aside time to just listen, quieting ourselves to receive a download from our Father through the Holy Spirit.

Two and a half years ago, Nate and I were taking time to listen. We were praying about going to The Netherlands for our youngest daughter’s wedding. We were planning on staying about two weeks. That was our plan! We began quieting ourselves and listening to the Holy Spirit, He asked us this question. “Would you consider staying two months?” That was how Holy Spirit phrased it to us, “Would you consider?” He is such a gentleman in the way he speaks to his children. We responded, “Of course we will.”

We had no idea how this would all play out. Where would we stay for two months? We both had fulltime jobs in the states. Were we to quit these jobs? How would we finance such a trip on our retirement salary? There was an excitement, an energy we had not felt in many years. I will not go into all the details, but needless to say, it was amazing! God orchestrated this trip. All of it was taken care of by the time we arrived in The Netherlands. It definitely stretched our faith, but oh it needed to be stretched a little! There were many ministry opportunities for Nate and myself. God ordained appointments with people from all over the world. In fact the young Indian Pastor that has invited us to India in July 2011 was one of those God appointments we encountered in The Netherlands at the YWAM base.

Wow! What if we had not taken the time to listen? I once again stand in awe of God and I am humbled by this thought. I would like to encourage you to take time to quiet yourself and listen for the voice of God. Take time to find out what is on his heart. That is a great starting place, “What is on your heart today, LORD.” I am listening and willing to do your bidding.

There are God opportunities everywhere each and every day. I am not talking about busying yourself with good things to do. That typically results in burnout and a lack of passion. It is a form of legalism that has the appearance of good works. Seeking guidance through Holy Spirit, who searches God’s heart and reveals direction to you, is a better way. This way produces lasting fruit and much joy in the giving and serving. I love this Kingdom walk so much. God’s progressive will for me keeps me full of anticipation and unspeakable joy. I have confidence that what he is leading me into is a perfect fit for my life. It will deepen my walk with him and will bless the people he leads me to.

I Chronicles 4:10b
Oh that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me.

There is HOPE

Isaiah 60:22
The least of you will become a thousand, the smallest a mighty nation. I am the LORD; in its time I will do this swiftly.

This is just one scripture that gives us hope for His Kingdom coming to earth through nations turning to Him. I have been giving a lot of thought to intercession for the nations lately. I know that this is by the Holy Spirit’s prompting. The LORD has a plan that all nations will come to acknowledge who He is. I believe we, as current believers, can play an active role in this coming to pass. It is through intercession for the nations

Mark 4:30-32
Again he said, “What shall we say the kingdom of God is like, or what parable shall we use to describe it? It is like a mustard seed, which is the smallest seed you plant in the ground. Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants with such big branches that the birds of the air perch in its shade.”

God’s kingdom is coming to the earth, you can count on it! The word of God is going forth daily all over the world, and it is bringing forth fruit. Many people are coming to the LORD through personal witness and also through supernatural visitations. Don’t ever underestimate the power of God’s word going forth. It will not return void, but will accomplish that which it was sent to do. (Isaiah 55:11)

Several years ago, Nate and I were leading an urban church. We were not seeing a lot of lasting fruit coming from the young people we were serving; even though we were consistent in our love towards them and also in delivering the word of God several times a week. I remember seeking the LORD as to what we should do. His answer remained the same for several years. It was to keep on loving them and speaking the word of God over them. We may not have seen the lasting fruit, but there is not any doubt in my mind that we were obedient. God will bring the increase! I am sure many of those young people are serving the LORD today because of what was sown into them! We have since heard from several of them giving testimony of just that. Praise God! He is faithful to perform what his word says! Do not ever despise small works! God can take what you have and multiply it.

Isaiah 61:11
For as the soil makes the sprout come up, and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations.

I declare this to be true! Jesus will cause righteousness and praise to spring up in all people, in all nations!

How can we be apart of this move of God? We can partner with God through intercession for the nations, for all people. I have been in intercessory prayer where I know that I have touched the heart of the Father with my prayers.

This is how it works:
You ask Holy Spirit what is important to Him.
You listen to what He tells you.
You pray to Father God what was revealed by His Spirit.
This is praying in accordance to His will, thus we are partnering with Him on behalf of many different people groups.

Jeremiah 33:3
Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.

As we intercede revelation accompanies these times of praying. Holy Spirit searches the deep things of God and reveals them to us. He does this so that we pray more effectively.
There is such joy in reaching the heart of the Father. I have said many times, “I feel most alive when I am interceding.”

I have a young Navajo friend who has been with Youth With A Mission for several years, and is now serving at IHOP. She sent an update today via email. She gave testimony of praying for her family to come into the Kingdom. They are all presently serving the LORD. I cannot go into detail, but this was not an ordinary family. There was definitely baggage of many years of addiction and being torn by the enemy. She is giving glory to God, and rightly so. I will say that she played an incredible part in their redemption. She cooperated with God and is now seeing her family changed by the power of prayer.

Wow! Let’s get excited about what God is going to do through our times of intercession. He has extravagant plans that we do not know about yet. North America come in, South America come in, Europe come in, Asia come in, North, South, East and West come into the Kingdom. It is your destiny, your created purpose to serve the LORD!

My husband has had more than one dream about calling out to the peoples of the earth to come to the LORD. One of them, he saw so many people responding that in his dream he called our sons to come and help him with the needs of the people! This is going to happen and I say it is already begun. Expect it, ready yourself for it. God will cause righteousness and praise to spring up before all nations!

In January of 2011, I plan to begin a prophetic intercessory meeting at Global Destiny ministry house. It will be for the purpose of praying God’s heart over our nation and the nations. We will also pray specifically for our church and the other churches in Albuquerque as the LORD leads us.